Marriage is the grave of love. I used to disagree with this sentence. It was not until I experienced my wife’s betrayal that I realized the cruelty of this sentence.I am an ordinary white -collar worker. I am 38 years old. My wife is an executive of a foreign company. We have been married for ten years and have an eight -year -old son.Our marriage looks very happy, but in fact, there is a secret secret: my wife has a lover outside, and she is pregnant with his child.This is what I have discovered recently and the biggest blow in my life.The following is my self -report
My wife and I were college classmates. We got married after four years. At that time, we were all young and full of longing for the future.We all work hard and want to give each other a good life.We bought a house, gave birth to a son, and a family of three lived a happy life.There are no contradictions and quarrels between us, and there is no passion and romance, that is, the bland and stable get along.
I trust my wife and respect her work.She is a very capable and charming woman. She is very reused in the company and often travels or overtime.I never ask her more work details, and I will not limit her freedom.I think as long as she is happy, I am happy.I won’t doubt what derailment she will have, because I think she is a moral and responsible person, and she will not do something sorry for me.
Until one day, I accidentally discovered her secret.That day was the weekend, and she said that she was going to the company to deal with some urgent things, so she hurried out.My son and I played the game at home, and suddenly remembered that I wanted to buy her fruits and drinks, and I took the key to the nearby supermarket.When I came back, I saw her car parked on the side of the road, sitting in a strange man in the car.They are kissing.
I was stunned at the time and couldn’t believe my eyes.I feel like I was chopped by a thunder.I do n’t know what to do, do you rush up and ask her or pretend that I did n’t see it?I stood there for a long time, until they ended the kiss before walking home quietly.
After returning home, I said nothing, but I silently put the fruits and drinks on the table.My son asked me what happened, and I said it’s okay.He saw that I was wrong, so he no longer disturbed me and went to the room by himself.I sat on the sofa, motionless, but my heart seemed to have a fire in burning.I can’t think of it, why should she treat me like this?What does she have to do with that man?How long have they been together?Did she not love me anymore?Do she want to leave me?what do I do?
I want to call her and ask clearly, but I’m afraid to hear her voice.I want to send her a message to express my anger, but I’m afraid she ignores me.I want to email her and write my mood, but I’m afraid she will not reply.I want to send her WeChat to see her dynamics, but I am afraid to see her and his photos.I want to send her QQ to see her signature, but I’m afraid to see her mood.I want to do everything, but I can’t do anything.
After one afternoon, she hadn’t returned yet.I started to calm down and want to ignore this matter.I don’t think I can wait passively, and I can’t escape blindly.I have to face this problem and find a solution.I took out my pen and paper and started writing my thoughts.
First of all, I want to know why she is derailed.Is there a problem with our marriage?Is it because we lack communication and care?Is it because our sexual life is not harmonious?Is it because our values are inconsistent?Or is she because she encountered a better candidate?Or is it just an impulse and curiosity?
Secondly, I want to know how deep her feelings for that man.Is it true love or playing?Is it a long -term relationship or a short passion?Is it pure sexual needs or complicated emotional entanglement?Is it active pursuit or passive acceptance?Or use each other?
Again, I want to know what she plans to get in our marriage.Want to continue or want to end?Want to recover or want to give up?Want to be loyal or betrayal?Want to be honest or to deceive?Do you want both sides?
Finally, I want to know what I have about this matter.Is it forgiven or revenge?Continue or break up?Is trust or doubt?Is it understanding or accusation?Or does it matter?
That night, she returned.She looks calm and beautiful.She greeted me with a smile and said that she was busy today, so let me not wait for her to eat.Then went to the bedroom to change clothes.I went into the bedroom behind her and closed the door.
"We need to talk." I said.
"What about talking?" She asked.
"What are you doing this afternoon?" I asked.
"What’s wrong with you? Are you monitoring me?" She asked.
"Can you answer my question positively?" I said.
"Okay, okay, you must already know." She said
"I went to see a friend this afternoon. He is my colleague and my lover. We have been together for half a year. He is very good to me. We are very good. You don’t have to worry, this will not affect our marriage.I still love you, but sometimes I need some freshness and excitement, "she said.
"What are you talking about? You actually have a face to say these words? Do you know what you are doing? Do you know how much harm you have to me? Do you know how irresponsible you are for our son?Can you betray me like this and betray our family? "I asked her loudly.
"Don’t be excited, don’t be excited, listen to me explanation. I didn’t betray you, I just want some freedom and space. Do you know how much pressure I am in the company, I need some relaxation and comfort. He can give it to meThese, he can make me happy, he can make me feel my value. You should not blame me, you should understand me and support me, "she said.
"Understand you? Support you? What do you think you are talking about? What do you think you are doing? What do you think this is a game? This is a marriage, this is feelings, this is life. You can’t play with other people’s feelings, harmThe dignity of others and destroy the happiness of others. You can’t both want fish and bear the paw. You can’t take advantage of both sides. You must make a choice. "I said.
"Choose? What to choose? I don’t need to make any choice. I can have him and you at the same time. He gives me happiness, you give me a stable. He gives me passion, you give me warm. He is my lover, you are my husband. He is my day, you are my night. He is my sweetness, you are my bitterness. He is my paradise, you are my hell.Everything is my, what are you mine? "She said.
"You …" I couldn’t believe that she said that, and she was so shameless, ruthless, unreasonable, ignorant, unknown, and rogue.She even sold our emotions for ten years, regarded our marriage as a child’s drama, and our son as a burden.She chose the man without hesitation and regarded me as a dispensable foil.
"Well, since you said that, then there is nothing to say. Let’s divorce." I said.
"Divorce? Why divorce? We can continue. As long as you don’t mind my affairs, don’t interfere with my freedom, and don’t bother my happiness, we can be as good as before.We can’t separate easily for his happiness and growth, "she said.
"Impossible. We have no common points and feelings. We are no longer a husband and wife. We are no longer a family. We have no longer connected. You have betrayed me and betrayed usMarriage, betrayed our son. You are no longer worthy of being my wife, not worthy of being his mother, not worthy of being my family. You have lost everything. You have no qualifications and claims to stay with you.There are no reasons and excuses to prevent me from leaving you. You have no hope and opportunity to save me. "I said.
"Choose? What to choose? I don’t need to make any choice. I can have him and you at the same time. He gives me happiness, you give me a stable. He gives me passion, you give me warm. He is my lover, you are my husband. He is my day, you are my night. He is my sweetness, you are my bitterness. He is my paradise, you are my hell.Everything is my, what are you mine? "She said.
"You …" I couldn’t believe that she said that, and she was so shameless, ruthless, unreasonable, ignorant, unknown, and rogue.She even sold our emotions for ten years, regarded our marriage as a child’s drama, and our son as a burden.She chose the man without hesitation and regarded me as a dispensable foil.
"Well, since you said that, then there is nothing to say. Let’s divorce." I said.
"Divorce? Why divorce? We can continue. As long as you don’t mind my affairs, don’t interfere with my freedom, and don’t bother my happiness, we can be as good as before.We can’t separate easily for his happiness and growth, "she said.
"Impossible. We have no common points and feelings. We are no longer a husband and wife. We are no longer a family. We have no longer connected. You have betrayed me and betrayed usMarriage, betrayed our son. You are no longer worthy of being my wife, not worthy of being his mother, not worthy of being my family. You have lost everything. You have no qualifications and claims to stay with you.There are no reasons and excuses to prevent me from leaving you. You have no hope and opportunity to save me. "I said.
Just when we quarreled, his son came out of the room. He heard our voice. He saw our expression and he felt our atmosphere.He asked us what happened, why he had to quarrel and why divorce.I hugged him, comforted him, and told him that this was not his fault. It was a problem for mom and dad. We would solve it as soon as possible.He cried, he said he didn’t want our divorce, he said he wanted a complete family, and he said he loved us.
I looked at my son, it hurts, guilty, and helpless.I want to give him a perfect childhood, a happy family, a happy future.But now, I want to let him bear such a blow, let him face such reality, and let him lose such a dream.I hate myself, hate myself that I can’t protect him, cannot satisfy him, and cannot accompany him.
I hate her even more, hate her for her own desire, sacrifice our feelings, sacrifice our marriage, and sacrifice our son.How can she be so selfish, so cruel, so ruthless?How can she pursue her happiness regardless of everything, regardless of the pain of others?How can she make such a choice without considering the consequences, regardless of the other party’s feelings?
I decided to expose her true face and let her pay the price.I took out my phone and opened her chat history with that man.I secretly copied her WeChat data to my mobile phone because I wanted to find more evidence to prove her crime.I handed her the phone and asked her to see what she said to the man.
She took the phone and glanced at the content displayed on the screen, and her face immediately became pale.She looked at me in horror and couldn’t speak.
I also glanced at the content displayed on the screen, and my heart almost stopped beating.I looked at her unbelievably and couldn’t speak.
The content displayed on the screen is like this:
"My dear, I have a good news to tell you."
"What good news?"
"I am pregnant."
"Really? Great! Is it my child?"
"Of course it’s your child! Are you still doubting it?"
"What do you plan to do?"
"I plan to give birth! This is our love crystallization!"
"What about your husband?"
"Don’t care about him! He is a waste! I wanted to leave him long ago! He won’t be as good as you!"
"Then when do you tell him?"
"Don’t tell him! I just divorce him directly! Anyway, he won’t resist! He is a weak coward!"
"What about your son?"
"Don’t care about him! He is a burden! I don’t want him! I just want you and our children!"
"Okay, okay, then you divorce him as soon as possible! I can’t wait to be with you! I love you!"
"I love you too! We will be happy!
Seeing these words, I felt my mind was blank, my body trembled for a while, and my heart stopped beating at once.I couldn’t believe that she had said that, and she did such a thing, and she was so cruel and ruthless to me and my son.She was pregnant with the man’s child, and she planned to give birth.She wanted to abandon me and my son, and she hated us.She even regarded us as a waste and burden, and was merciless to us.
I felt that she was completely betrayed by her, she was completely hurt by her, and she was completely abandoned by her.I felt that she was completely defeated by her, she was completely humiliated by her, and she was completely destroyed by her.I felt that she was completely denied by her, she was completely wiped out by her, and she was completely forgotten.
I feel that I have no meaning and value, no dignity and self -esteem, no hope and future.I feel that I have no reason and motivation, no beliefs and goals, no dreams and pursuits.I feel that I have nothing to let me continue to survive.
My heart is full of grief and despair, full of anger and hatred, full of madness and violence.I want to retaliate against her, want to kill her, and want to destroy her.I want her to pay the price, let her try her suffering, and let her regret it for a lifetime.
I picked up the fruit knife on the table and rushed to her.
When I was about to stab her, my son suddenly hugged my leg from behind and cried and shouted, "Dad, don’t! Don’t hurt your mother! Don’t leave us! We are a family! We can’t separate it.! "His voice seemed to be a sharp blade, stinging my heart.
I stopped my hand and looked at my son’s pitiful look, and my tears flowed down.I suddenly realized that I did something wrong. How could I treat my son like this, how could he let him see such a scene, how could he withstand such pain?He is innocent, he is innocent, and he is innocent.
I put down the knife, hugged my son, and said to him, "I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. Dad loves you, dad loves you, dad loves you. Dad will hurt my mother, dad will leave you, dad will let you make youSorry. We are a family, we are a family, we are a family. "
I raised my head and looked at her frightened face, and my heart was full of remorse and blame.I suddenly realized what I did wrong. How could I treat my wife like this, how can I want to kill her, how can I want to destroy her?She is my wife, she is my wife, and she is my wife.
I stood up, walked to her, and said to her, "I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I forgive you, I forgive you. I still love you, I still love you, I still love you.Leaving you, I won’t leave you, I won’t leave you. "
I stretched out my hand and wanted to hug her.But she pushed me away, picked up the knife, and stabbed her chest.
"Don’t! Don’t! Don’t!" I shouted and wanted to stop her.But it’s too late.The blood spit out, stained her clothes.She fell to the ground, her eyes were still open.
"Why? Why? Why?" I asked her crying.But she didn’t answer.She just looked at me and my son with a smile, saying a word:
"sorry."
Then I never move again
This is my story.A tragic story.A story without results.A meaningless story.
Now my son and I only depend on each other.We work hard every day, try to forget the past, and face the future.We are trying to find some hope and happiness every day, try to find some reasons and motivations, and try to find some dreams and pursuits.
But we all know that there is always a hollow in our hearts.A cave that cannot be filled.An unforgettable empty hole.A cave that cannot be relieved.
That’s the empty hole she left to us.
It was the empty hole left by the marriage.
That’s the empty hole left by life.
